My biggest fear used to be failure.
I was convinced that if I failed at something then my life would be over. Obviously, I learned that wasn’t quite true, even if I did keep it a secret for, oh, about 15 years.
For a long time I’ve had this underlying feeling of not being good enough, of never being cool/nice/fun/funny/smart/pretty/whatever enough. Let me tell you, that’s totally not a fun way to live – at all. It’s all-consuming and I spent many years constantly judging myself and my actions. I’m pretty dang sure I was judging myself far more harshly than anyone else ever was.
I’m finally now in a place where I’ve realized I am good enough (if you’ve been around for a while, I’m sure you’ve heard me say this a ton!) and I love it.
So, what’s my fear?
(I’ll warn you, this is a super personal one and yet, for some reason, I’m sharing it….)
Being a single cat lady.
I mean, yes, I love Merlin and think he’s pretty darn cool, but I also think I’m pretty awesome and would make an awesome girlfriend (and maybe wife).
On a related note, I’m pretty scared to put myself out there and date, because I’m an introvert and I have this assumption that I’ll hate dating.
I…..don’t really know where to go with the rest of this post because it’s pretty personal and, yeah.
Ummm, does anyone know if Matthew Iman (aka – The Oatmeal) is single? Because, yeah….Heh.
What’s your biggest fear?
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